reaching for a new state of being

I havent blogged in quite some time. It is mainly due to the fact that I have been transforming and changing. I have been letting things slide in life that i once thought were important. Some of them are important, in fact that is why I am back here writing again.
Unlike before I feel like I actually have a better understanding of my intention and action with this tool known as blogging. I am going to utilize this blog as a means of truly analyzing and expressing myself.It is a peculiar, fascinating feeling.
I am going to blog daily and I am going to go into depth with my health, band, relationships and family affairs....Basically I am going to lay it all on the line in hopes of understanding myself better and in doing so "become the change i wish to see in the world"
This is particularly challenging to me for a number of reasons. For example, I have control and power issues...which means that i like to have my fingers in all of the pies and my interests held close to my heart. I am changing those aspects to become more so I have to identify them and release them back into the void in which I created them. Letting go of power and the idea of control is an ENORMOUS mountain to master and I feel that letting it all out and baring my ego will also aid in this transformational process.
On a completely lighter side of the universe I am typically exploring and adventuring through the many fascinations of this delightful human experience. Maui is the set and stage for this play of my life and the characters are exceptional, strange, unique and fascinating individuals who reflect and bend light in their own right.
My female relationships will be baring quite a bit of humility on my part and hopefully someone someday who reads these will maybe in sum tiny way hopefully understand the opposite sex a little better, because harmony in the balance of man and woman is key to an unimaginably bright future.
And finally P.O.R.T.A.L. which is the business and artistic endeavour I have chosen as a vessel of transport throughout this crazy life jpurney. We as a group are constantly learning about this new music "Industry". The rules have completely changes and we have a very specific plan of attack I will be detailing and sharing through this blog and my upcoming video diaries.
OK i am done rambling for the day! ALOHA