I locked my fucking keys in the car! FUCK

Well yesterday i rushed myself into a stupid hurry and locked my keys in the car. fortunately i have a hide a key, i used it and then left it in my dashboard console...today arrives and i foolishly lock myself out while changing for the beach!!!! My friend had AAA and it only took like two hours to get back into my car. did i mention it was in the middle of the day in a lava rock field with literally ZERO shade! I looked inside my car and watched my freshly purchased water glisten, bead with sweat and eventually seem to boil! Its like a 130 goddamn degrees i am topless with no shoes, no hat and no sunscreen! Needless to say i am sunburned as a motherfucker! But i have tons of work to get done and a little time out of the sun and beach will just help me get more done!

As far as tour and recording are going, it looks like we are gonna make it happen! How? i am not sure but we have the will so i know there is a way! ALOHA

Touring, Rocking and Fucking...but never failing

This fucking planet sized mountain we are climbing is either getting larger or we are shrinking! What i mean is P.O.R.T.A.L. has been playing, rocking and generally having a good time for about three years now.

In those first three years our intention was purely to create original music and have fun. We weren't sure how we would be received due to the nature of our musical experiment but to our surprise people are stoked! We recorded an E.P. in our tiny lab in a poem on the road to heaven. We have got billed with some heads and through the internet have devoloped a small following.

That is all great and gravy! Now we are getting a clear idea how to really take it up several notches. Lets say to about 11. Upon deciding the band is going to be our 1st intention our first thought was: Wow we have got a lot of work to do if we really want to venture out into the world and seek out our "fortune and glory" but we can do anything!!!!

That being said, we not only underestimated how much it would take to get our name further out into the sea of musical scenes around the world. We also had no fucking idea the cost of actually taking a band on the road really is! Let me tell you it is INSANELY FUCKING EXPENSIVE! There are more costs that will nickel and dime you to death over night. and guess what? You are almost gauranteed to make ZERO dollars! Now upon realizing these things you might be asking yourself why would we still be considering this as an option. Well i will tell you why, 1) I personally really love a challenge and this is the biggest of challenges, 2) we collectively have nothing to lose and that alone gives us the ability to succeed! but more importantly than both of those reasons is simple, We LOVE creating and sharing our MUSIC! We do not care how impossible it seems. We are going to do it regardless and we are gonna fucking rock some souls on the way!

i wonder if it will stick

so i am back to bloggging it up almost a year later...and what have i learned in the last almost year? Not a fucking thing except that when it comes to being an idiot every single person on this planet will get to play that role a couple of times. That being said let it be known that i dont think everyone is a complete fucking moron, its rather the opposite. i think everyone has the ability inside themselves to spew forth moments of utter stupidity...i guess its all in what you do when you are the idiot inside that particular moment.

reaffirmations reflections, and high vibrations

Today I finally got my car into the shop to get fixed...and I think the mechanic might actually be a decent fellow who isnt looking to fuck me.)
Yesterday was very challenging but at the end of the day I realized that the hard work I put in all day totally paid off and paved the road for 2days success. As long as I increase my productivity, put conscious intention behind all the things I do, daily i will grow exponentially. It is quite an exhilerating feeling re empowering myself again for the first time.
It is a very funny thing being human, what it takes for an individual to put action into his/her intentions, thoughts, dreams, and desires of life. It took me visiting my family and seeing first hand the destruction and damage a poor diet and lack of excercise can do. It is not only my family but the population in general that has serious health issues that could be resolved by MINOR adjustments in the lifestyles they are living.
It was such a FUCKING slap in the face to look at the people you love and watch them wither due to being poisoned through poor information. I was totally destroyed and broken for what seemed like an eternity, I felt weak and powerless unable to help my family in any way. I wanted so much for my parents to realize that what they are eating is killing them. They have forgotten a lesson they tought me; the only way to change anything is inside of themselves. They have the ability to @ the very least enjoy the last bit of life they have left instead of fully suffering and whithering away in pain, @ least ease the pain a little bit. So as you(whoever YOU are) can see it seemed a little bit hopeless and downtrodden, until I remembered!! Become the change and reflect it to the world!! Suddenly I felt greatful for all of the amazing things I have in this life, I remembered and lifted my vibration up again and accepted that I can only do what I can do so I better fuckin ROCK IT! Therefore, with how very fortunate I am it is my responsibility and in a sense job to live at the very highest vibration possible!
The lifestyle I live makes me feel so VERY fortunate!! I feel like I have won the lottery 100x over! I have my health, love, family and the most beautiful health abundant place on the planet as my home!! Maui I thank you! Your trials have made me stronger, your landscape has cleared my mind and your heart has opened my own heart. there is no particular way to describe the transcendantal nature of this human experience, but if I did have to choose one word it would be...Aloha

reaching for a new state of being

I havent blogged in quite some time. It is mainly due to the fact that I have been transforming and changing. I have been letting things slide in life that i once thought were important. Some of them are important, in fact that is why I am back here writing again.
Unlike before I feel like I actually have a better understanding of my intention and action with this tool known as blogging. I am going to utilize this blog as a means of truly analyzing and expressing myself.It is a peculiar, fascinating feeling.
I am going to blog daily and I am going to go into depth with my health, band, relationships and family affairs....Basically I am going to lay it all on the line in hopes of understanding myself better and in doing so "become the change i wish to see in the world"
This is particularly challenging to me for a number of reasons. For example, I have control and power issues...which means that i like to have my fingers in all of the pies and my interests held close to my heart. I am changing those aspects to become more so I have to identify them and release them back into the void in which I created them. Letting go of power and the idea of control is an ENORMOUS mountain to master and I feel that letting it all out and baring my ego will also aid in this transformational process.
On a completely lighter side of the universe I am typically exploring and adventuring through the many fascinations of this delightful human experience. Maui is the set and stage for this play of my life and the characters are exceptional, strange, unique and fascinating individuals who reflect and bend light in their own right.
My female relationships will be baring quite a bit of humility on my part and hopefully someone someday who reads these will maybe in sum tiny way hopefully understand the opposite sex a little better, because harmony in the balance of man and woman is key to an unimaginably bright future.
And finally P.O.R.T.A.L. which is the business and artistic endeavour I have chosen as a vessel of transport throughout this crazy life jpurney. We as a group are constantly learning about this new music "Industry". The rules have completely changes and we have a very specific plan of attack I will be detailing and sharing through this blog and my upcoming video diaries.
OK i am done rambling for the day! ALOHA

reenrgized, catlyzed ready to RIDE

Well so much for blogging everyday...i guess i will have to work at this blogging thing a little harder.
So i was totally sick for about a week and through that week I have had some of the most amazing transitions occur. It is really quite a testament to the universe how perfect everything always seems to work out if you keep a clear mind and GOOD intention behind your thoughts and actions.Therefore, I have relinquished the idea of holding, trying to achieve and gathering power. I AM LETTING GO...and it feels GREAT!
I really feel that this has been a personal struggle of mine for lifetimes upon lifetimes, and as much as i have had a decent intention for others through life there has always been an underlying weird power, ego trip that underneath and inside of myself i knew was wrong...I finally saw it plain as the sunshine on a clear day! Now that I see it i can OWN it, accept it and resume WALKing along down the path of life.
It has also become abundantly clear that previously there was a space in my heart that i really had little to no understanding of. Discovering this doorway and opening the door feels good and all I can say is LOVE, LOVE, LOVE,IS THE ANSWER. Which i knew before but i am realizing how all encompassing and huge LOVE is...its mind boggling like the internet but a whole lot BIGGER.
I think that meditations on love are as deep and mysterious and wonderful as the WHOLE of the universe! In fact i would imagine they really are meditations on the same idea.
Ok i have rambled enough today, but i will be back 2morrow because i have a bit more explaining to do!

TRACK OF THE WEEK

WOW is all I can say, I had no idea how great a site garageband.com is. Being a 100% independant group who lives on the farthest fringes of the "map" at the end of reality, deep in the jungles and most of the time in dreamland, having access like this is truly amazing! Not only are we being heard we get to hear whats happening with other great groups all over the world...So travelers of the mind make sure to check out our track Geppettos Dream featured as the experimental electronica track of the week @ garageband.com! And one more thing: We here at P.O.R.T.A.L. really hope that regardless of all the crazy shit happening all over the globe right now it is important to remember that YOU ARE THE SOLUTION, and the REVOLUTION! ALOHA